Girls in White Dresses

This is the beauty my mom's friend made for Gracie. It's teeny right now since we don't really know when she will be born or how big she will be. I think she is making one in a slightly bigger size as well.

The neck and arms are velcro because, worst case, she is still born, their limbs aren't flexible so it's difficult to dress them. The velcro solves this because she could just be laid onto the dress and velcro'd in.

I know it's been a while since my last post which was mostly a bleak version of my perspective but I assure all of you we are doing all right.

I have an appointment with the perinatal doc tomorrow which will tell us a bit more about her growth trend so that will be good, or at least informative.

I am about 25 weeks right now which is incredible because this has literally been the longest pregnancy of my life and I am STILL not in the 30's but oh well.

I have been trying to enjoy it though. I'm trying to just really savor the time right now that I have with Gracie. She is very very active and so I lay in bed at night and just feel her bouncing around and it's comforting. It's our girl time.

We are going to be moving in a couple weeks to a new house which is exciting!!! AND the bonus is it will keep me EXTREMELY busy as there are MANY projects to be done.

The problem with moving to a new hosue is we will also be moving to a new ward (moving to a new ward is kind of like moving to a new school district for my church, you go to whatever building and time based on where you live). ANYWAY, the dilemma is what do I say?

I'm clearly pregnant and will clearly get questions, but saying Hi, I'm Emma and yes I'm pregnant with a girl and she will probably not survive, is kind of a conversation killer.

Case in point. I went to a birthday party for my second born and I was chatting with all the moms. I basically pretended everything was fine with the baby et cetera, but there was this one lady who went on and on about how great it was to finally be having a girl after three boys and all the milestones in a girl's life and how great her wedding would be. (SERIOUSLY? She was very adept at adding salt to the wound). And finally I said, yeah she has all these problems and might not ever leave the hospital.

That shut her up and she tried to discretely avoid me the rest of the party. So, I don't want people to avoid me because they don't know what to say so I think I might just not say anything???

Would you be offended if you were friends with someone for a few months, she had her baby, and then you found out all along that she knew the bad news? I don't know. Maybe it will just come out naturally.

Anyway. I'll try to update tomorrow about the appointment. Until then...;) (see the smile on my face? I'm doing just fine.)